Abstract: This thesis discusses the findings of a research study, informed by the work of van Manen (1997b), which explored the lived experiences of five mental health nurses who have had a patient die through suicide. Narrative was used as a method in interviews to uncover the essence of their lived experiences. Five interwoven themes uncovered in each of the interviews were: impact, support, feelings, closure and paradox. All of the nurses interviewed experienced a wide range of feelings about their patient's suicides, ranging from shock to guilt, to anger and sadness, and described their patient's suicide as having a significant impact on them. Support received by the nurses following their patient's suicide was variable, and they were often in the difficult position of trying to offer support to the patient's family. Common to all of the nurses was the lack of closure following the suicide. Paradox was found to be the overall essence of the experience of the mental health nurses interviewed. Three main paradoxical themes or statements were identified that are in many respects a summary of all of the themes that emerged. These were: unavoidable – responsible; inevitable – unprepared; duty of care – respect for patient's decision to end their life. The author suggests that the ability of the nurses interviewed to accept and reconcile the paradoxical issues that arise in relation to patient suicide, and accept the lack of closure they experience, is a fundamental element in their ability to continue to work in the mental health setting, despite the significant impact their patient's suicide has had on them. Four recommendations are made based on the insights gained from this research. These are: that every mental health service should have a suicide response policy; that undergraduate nursing education includes the impact of patient suicide; the development of policies which promote dialogue about suicide within the community; and the need for further research in this topic.

Abstract: This dissertation came out of the author's wondering why there are still so few men going into nursing especially when the history of nursing reveals that men have been a part of nursing for a long time. In New Zealand it is only since the mid seventies that men have been able to gain the exact same nursing qualifications as their women colleagues. The author notes that men in nursing are still seen as unusual in that they work in a predominantly female occupation and have had their masculinity questioned by the myth that all men in nursing must be gay. There is also the notion that caring is a difficult task for men and is seen by society as a uniquely feminine ability. Both issues are related to dominant notions of masculinity. In addition to this there is currently a crisis in terms of a nursing shortage and it has been suggested that one way to resolve this crisis is to encourage more men into nursing. Thus this exploration as to why there are so few men in nursing is timely. Men who choose nursing as a career risk challenging the traditional roles of their gender stereotype. A comprehensive search of the literature from different disciplines reveals deeper issues than just the commonly held assumption that nursing is not masculine. Exploring the issues of gender with a particular focus on masculinity has uncovered the concept of hegemonic masculinity. This describes how gender is practiced in a way that legitimises patriarchy, reinforcing the dominant position of men over women as well as over other groups of men. It is these patriarchal attitudes that have seen men marginalised within nursing. On the one hand men in nursing could be seen as challenging the current dominant masculine ideal. However, on the other hand men in nursing may not challenge this hegemonic masculinity; instead often supporting the status quo in an effort to maintain their own masculinity. The author suggests that the implication for nursing, if it is to increase the numbers of men in the profession, is to challenge this notion of hegemonic masculinity. This needs to be done appropriately by critically examining this concept rather than by merely replacing one hegemony with another. He goes on to say that it is now time for nursing education to include a critical exploration of gender issues and how it relates to men as part of undergraduate nursing education for both men and women students.