Abstract: This thesis is a philosophical inquiry that reflects a personal search for the meaning of ontological competency undertaken by the author after developing breast cancer. The text weaves together in creative synthesis, a collection of academic and personal writing undertaken during an MA (Applied) in Nursing degree process. Using the work of Dowling Singe (1999), Watson (1999), and Wilber (1985, 1990, 1991 & 2000), the thesis seeks, through the use of reflective autobiographical inquiry (Johnstone 1999a), to explore the personal meaning-making activities engaged in during this time to throw light upon the nature of nurse / nursing being. Exploring developmental schemata drawn from personal experience and illuminated by theory, nurses and nursing are challenged to become more self-reflective and self-aware. To facilitate the personal and professional growth that underpins notions of ontological competency, various aids in the form of maps and models are provided to support a transformative journey into awareness. From this position of expanding consciousness, the nurse / nursing is encouraged to reach beyond current paradigms, metaparadigms, epistemologies, and restrictive philosophies and to yield to the evolutionary imperative that seeks to prepare for a 21st century clinical practice where caring / healing becomes embodied enactment from “the Ground of All Being”.